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march 31, 2002

ickyconsumption

i posted in consume about hot cross buns...


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march 31, 2002

omnimedia

after doing all this research on marthastewart.com, i feel like i could start up my own media / ecommerce empire!

but i am also ready to get going to a party in goodwood tonight. it sounds like it's going to be a lot of fun.

:::...

the time has come (conveniently, at the same time as a whole lot of assignments are due) for me to learn how to play guitar.

because there is a list of songs i want to learn to play. including:

i think that i'm pretty much inspired to really learn guitar by the absolutely crap people who are the finalists on popstars. i have very strong feelings against the girl julie. she just doesn't really go pow! and she sounds like she's going for the same audience that celine dion pulls. urgh!

and because battlecat [the band] are ready for a comeback [debut] tour any day now. it will be the ultimate adelaide supergroup.

if only we had some songs...


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march 31, 2002

ciudad de la roca

we had so many people turn up at rock city last night. people we knew. people we knew slightly and complete strangers! and we had to ask people to leave at the end of the night.

which show how effective bunny ears are at bringing people together. maybe tiaras and eeyore ears and cat ears and rabbit ears should be handed out on the westbank. and then there'll be peace!

:::...

my parentals are cooking tomato sauce. even though they've got the pot outside on the barbecue, the house still smells of spices and tomatoes and apples. mmmm.


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march 30, 2002

two steps to the left and then five back

last year feels like a dream.

last year i was living out of home, my work seemed full of opportunities and i was with the most amazing boy.

this year i feel like i've slipped back.

it's not just the horrible uppermiddleclasscapitalistwestern ideal of the "trifekta of life [house, work, partner]" that isn't working out. i don't feel inspired about anything at the moment. i go to a party and i sit around and mope. i can't think of anything i want to buy to make me feel better in a fake consumer buzz way. i'm not really that interested in my uni subjects at the moment. even my colorgenics profile isn't positive.

i could go to melbourne during the holidays. but i'm not that inspired to.

i'm not watering my plants. i feel guilty about this. but i don't particularly feel like nurturing the bonsai. there's something sybolic about neglecting it. maybe i'll water the herbs though.

:::...

i always feel completely aware of depression. that it's chemical. that things will get better soon.

but i can't pick the one thing that i did which caused the success of last year to dissolve. was it giving up work at the sleep lab to follow the [unfulfilled] promises of my current job? not going away at the start of this year rather than waiting? choosing to stay with aidan while he was still in adelaide rather than getting rid of him as soon as i knew he was going?

it's as if being 21 was the shining year of my life so far.

maybe life works in 7 year cycles? and i'm at the start of a new one? but i can't remember my 14th or 7th years as particularly overwhelming.

:::...

however,

i did like the sentiment of this. [if only i was angry rather than depressed. at least that way i'd be motivated to do something.]

and i laughed out loud at this.


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march 29, 2002

image::copy

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my little bit of the Image::Copy project.

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i just finished my Exploring Technoculture assignment. my fingers are sore and i don't think the assignment was very good.

i noted stuff last week. but because of other assignments, today was the day i actually did it. and in my usual style it was also the day it was due. and i also thought it was only meant to be 1000 words. so it's probably a bit short.

but at least it's finished!


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march 28, 2002

quel surprise!

i should have woken up earlier. i should have gone to sleep earlier. [why oh why can i never get to sleep?]. i should have eaten some breakfast. i should have started my assignments earlier.

theoretically i should be manically entering content for work. but i've taken a little detour [from rebecca blood's page]

:::...

what a beautiful surprise. when i got into work today i found two payslips... for every hour i've worked since i started here, i got an extra $3.10!

i thought that i was being paid less than i should be... someone else thought so too!


so that makes $1200 i wasn't expecting.


so, i've paid off my credit card, put $450 away in my savings account and now i've actually got money to live off this week!


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march 28, 2002

i want to live in my headphones

one day soon


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march 27, 2002

phew.

i realised that there were many errors in the java code that i worked on last night.

whoops.

so i've just spent the last 3 hours fixing it up. and my back feels worse from all the tense hunched over keyboard activity.

but, i do still have time to drive into the city, take in my rock city flyers to big *, and hopefully find mark to lend him werewolves in their youth by michael chabon.

:::...

tonight i intend to:


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march 27, 2002

yoga hangover

yoga hangover (n) - the state of discomfort felt in the days following a yoga session. often characterised by complete exhaustion, stiff muscles and a feeling of virtue at having recently undertaken physical activity.

:::...

i'm feeling the combined painful effects of shoulder stands and java coding today. i have a very achey back from yoga, and the java coding stuffed up my neck which means i can feel a bad headache coming.

i haven't slept thoroughly for the last week, and my sleep pattern has been completely wonky for about 2 months.


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march 27, 2002

massage please?

i've finally got the subtraction and division functions working for my objects and algorithms assignment. (they're not the ideal algorithms, but they'll do.)

in between java coding and email checking, i made up a flyer for this saturday's rock city... and even better, i actually printed some copies (i've made about 4 prototype rock city flyers.... but i've never printed them.)

rock city. girls with bunny ears.

i'm never ever going to procrastinate ever again.

as if.

:::...

we did shoulder stands in yoga!


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march 26, 2002

100%

on seeing the 100% perfect girl one beautiful april morning - haruki murakami

5 pages. that's all he needed to describe perfect love and lost love.


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march 26, 2002

w.i.r.e.d.

my sleep pattern is stuffed... i now work on a 2.30 sleep time.

despite this, i drank a pretty strong coffee before i went over to uni to work on objects and algorithms. "to keep me awake".

i'm still wired. and it's now 4.45.

rather than not being able to sleep i decided to upload some photos from when i did shoot the couch. which meant that i decided to incorporate the a list apart tutorial on wrapping images.

i'm much happier with the sidebar now, but i have to get up for yoga tomorrow! i'm going to be sooooo. tired.


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march 26, 2002

procrastination over... panic starts

<geek>

i've managed to get the objects and algorithms assignment working for creating and updating the linked list, addition and multiplication.

tomorrow, all i have to do is the subtract_operands function... and if i get that working, hopefully divide_operands for 10 bonus marks.

if only i'd done more coding during the holidays....

</geek>

after about 50 days without a single drop, it finally rained today.

there was the smell of new rain on dust combined with the aroma of lemon scented gums.

it made me feel so happy.


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march 26, 2002

extroversionorselfpromotion

jacob's online portfolio


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march 25, 2002

modicom

modicom


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march 25, 2002

str

str


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march 25, 2002

pyrrotism

pyrrotism


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march 25, 2002

babydoll

babydoll


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march 25, 2002

if you dig enough holes in the ice, you'll find a penguin

check out ken's online portfolio. there's some really beautiful stuff in there.


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march 25, 2002

trying to clarify

loving people makes you tired. the reason why people want the people they love to love them back is because they need some more energy.


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march 25, 2002

looked at but lonely

i've had people from italy and the us and denmark and the uk and new zealand and the phillipines and saudi arabia all look at my site!

and of course i know that there are people in sweden and germany who check out my site...

i also had [most of those people i think] come through on weird search queries ...


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march 24, 2002

the juliet letters.

sometimes i feel that writing a blog is like writing letters to an imaginary person. occasionally someone mentions something i've written about in passing conversation, or i will get a comment, or an email.

unlike a diary (you can shut it away - you've written it and don't ever need to look at it again) or a letter (there is an intended reader - and chances are they'll respond to you), my blog is sent out into the ether, it's intended for people to read - but i don't know who is reading it.

anyway. this is my 201st entry to dailyish (formerly how can you fill up what is really nothing?). i feel like i've passed a milestone is self-obsessed ramblings.

<hint>
maybe you could comment? i feel kinda lonely!
</hint>


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march 24, 2002

skipcutcopy

the other day i was listening to the juliet letters by elvis costello and the brodsky quartet. and during the final song (the birds will still be singing) the cd player started to skip. a beautiful song had been turned into an amazing song. elvis costello would be singing up and up a scale, and the cd would skip, making a beautiful, jerky, rising, clicky sound. and then, the skipping would stop. "the birds will still be singing", no skipping - as if to resolve the erratic bursts of lovely noise earlier.

so i taped it. and then i cleaned the cd and listened to the real version. i think i like my accidental remix much more.


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march 24, 2002

possibly maybe

apart from a couple of hours of fun at effie's drinks last night, i feel that the evening was pretty much a waste.

i did finish my exploring technoculture book, and i did my washing and hung it up. my desk and room however, well, that remains an archipelago of stuff. a pile of recently listened to cds. another pile, this time of unwanted tatty old tshirts waiting to be torn into rags. a mound made up of uni notebooks, subject readers, a folder or two, a couple of videos and a gluestick. my desk is a continent of more bits of paper, a basket of cd-rs and floppies, a scanner and maeda @ media.

but i also started reading a book called hard, soft & wet by melanie mcgrath. it was written in about 1996. a young woman discovers the wonders of the internet and travels through the us, uk, iceland and europe, trying to capture "the digital generation", but realising along the way that if there is an online community, it is a fractured community.


it's strange, reading about someone's first encounter with a computer, and then their explorations of the 'net.

i can't even remember the first time i used a computer. it's hidden away at about year 5, along with "where in the world is carmen sandiego?" and a commodore 64 running off a cassette tape. i can remember trying to get our first modem to work. and how i logged into newsgroups and downloaded lyrics to the downward spiral by nineinchnails.

in year 12, people assumed (because i was using the internet) that i obviously was regularly trying to access pornography. all i did (as far as i can remember) was write emails to alison and zoe, and check spoilers for the x-files.


anyway. because i take computer use and the internet so much for granted nowadays, i was a little confused by mcgrath's initial conscious entry into the "wired world". it was refreshing to realise, as tutoring students in desktop publishing reminds me, there are a whole lot of people out there who don't have the relaxed attitude to using a computer that i have. for them, the initial contact, the learning to interace with a big beige machine is a very unusual step to take. it reminded me that i am part of a global minority. all this talk of a global community, the information revolution is limited to a very restricted part of the world's population.

i feel more relaxed into the book now. the narrator is now a member of the digital community, and just spent time in iceland. which reminds me. i have to go there. [maybe next semester. if i don't spend all of my money at the start].


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march 23, 2002

keep it up in the air

i woke up kinda earlyish (for me. on a saturday morning? that's about 11.30 thankyou.) procrastinated for a couple of hours (cup of tea, little bits of tidying, reading newspapers, eating, another cup of tea). and then i had a look at the assignment specifications to check what i was actually meant to be doing once i finished procrastinating...

and then i found out... the assignment isn't due for another week! i was tricked!

so i've been forwarding email from my antisocial account to my battlecat account so that i have antisocial space. and typing up some stuff for exploring technoculture.

even though i have to other assignments which i'm quite looking forward to working on. [if you said "geek!" you were quite right... but if you said "procrastinating geek!" you get a chocolate frog.]

and then there's the actual course work like doing the readings [i've really put that off]. yuck.

good intentions

but i probably won't...


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march 23, 2002

nepal

after another boring day of work website updating i decided to go into the city to the kathmandu sale.

i'd worked out what i wanted to buy. the astra polar fleece jacket. for $79.95.

i ended up spending $280.30

on the astra polar fleece jacket, the windward jacket (some kinda spiffy windproof fabric) for $120, an aluminium water bottle, a toiletry case with lots of compartments, a microfibre towel and a new daypack. and i managed to justify every purchase.

and then i went and purchased martha stewart living. shall we just say that i finally got the whole 'credit' concept of the credit card.

this is not going to be good.

but i did get free cookies from the arnott's emporium at home sample people in the mall!


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march 22, 2002

superpumpitup

i scanned a whole pile of images last night (yes, i was procrastinating) before i upgraded to mt 2.0 (some more procrastination there too). unfortunately there's something wrong with the upload files feature if i want to make a pop-up image.

so you'll have to wait. or maybe i'll just put up the thumbnails for the moment.

:::...

i've never had a tendency to get up early. or to regularly attend 9 am lectures. or to get to work on time. but that's usually a conscious decision. when i repeatedly press the snooze button from 7.45am through to about 9.55am.

but today i just switched the alarm clock off. and kept on sleeping.

and i feel like i have a hangover now. even though i just sat in front of the computer last night. i feel cheated as i could have gone and hung out at the prince albert hotel and actually worked towards a real hangover.

no alcohol but hangover feelings? that must be dehydration.


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march 22, 2002

it's light up there

it's light up there


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march 22, 2002

fatal journey

fatal journey


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march 22, 2002

jo and i be happy

jo and i be happy


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march 22, 2002

camellia at my grandma's

camellia at my grandma/'s


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march 22, 2002

this is tristan

tn_tristan.jpg


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march 22, 2002

i like stuff

i like stuff


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march 22, 2002

aidan and i on my 22nd birthday

aidan and i on my 22nd birthday


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march 22, 2002

sarah and aidan - artery party 2002

sarah and aidan - artery party 2002


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march 22, 2002

check one two

mt 2.0 upgraded so well! unfortunately the entry edit shortcuts don't work in netscape 6, but they didn't work with n6 mt 1.4 anyway.

it looks as if i'll be able to get all my assignment work done for next week without too many problems. once i'd actually looked at the java code for objects and algorithms it all made sense.

:::...

i've had to do a bit of research re: sending some vegemite over to sweden. see vegemite comes in glass containers and that makes it pretty hard to package up and send away without spending mucho cash. so. it looks like i'm going to buy vegemite and then repackage it up in some kind of plastic container. i looked for vegemite in tubes (a novelty release by kraft a couple of years ago). but to tell you the truth i hadn't actually thought of repackaging it myself.

vegemite. it should come in a jar with yellow and red. not in an old piece of tupperware.

but i also found a recipe for pumpkin and leek risotto on the vegemite website. i might give it a go.
:::...

aidan sent me an excellent, in depth, insightful, long email. it's making me think about things. if i had a year away to change my life what would i do?

and claire of loobylu is pregnant! congratulations to big-p and claire!

and i got nice email about my site from a sydney lad called cade.

what a good day!


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march 20, 2002

self expression. not procrastination.

as you can see, i've now put some images down the side!

so, over the next week while i'm meant to be doing assignments, i'll scan up some of my recent photos and put in some of my old rock photography ones, including a couple of jeff buckley.

i also procrastinated by going for a walk with mum, and chopping down an old geranium bush so that i can put some sweet peas in.

:::...

this article on japanese youth fashion made me have a few ideas. you could go over for a year (ostensibly to teach english or something), make limited edition clothes and !boom! if you were lucky you could be quite successful. but you could also fail miserably and lose all of your capital. which is why you'd also intend to teach english as well.

:::...
from maeda @ media:
"Turn the monitor of your computer off for a moment. Are the pixels you see gone? Certainly their visual presence is, but their electrical presence is not. This is verified by turning the monitor back on - nothing has changed.

By the act of turning the computer off, however, you know that the pixels are now truly gone. Not just the visual trace of the pixel, but the pixel itself.
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Alone a pixel is powerless. It is a character that only has value when seen as part of a large crowd."


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march 20, 2002

i am a consumer

i've had a nagging suspicion about this for a while, but i've just realised that almost every activity i take part in, is accompanied by the desire to get [beg, borrow, make, steal, buy] something.

yoga for instance. i've started buying "gym wear", and i've looked for a pattern to make a bolster (cushions and pillows just don't feel right - they're too squishy).

and gardening. that requires pots and plants and cute watering cans (i actually have a blue elephant shaped watering can. i love it. i want to keep it forever, despite the paltry amount of water that it holds) and magazines which have articles about gardening in them (inside out).

and sewing. patterns and fabric and zips and special sharp scissors.

and reading. that requires books and magazines. and i read quickly. so this is a pretty expensive thing to do.

travelling. that requires lots of consumption (tickets, insurance, accomodation etc). but i like immediate gratification, so i've even set it up so that i'm buying stuff now. i'm not going anywhere yet! for instance...

cooking. ingredients and donna hay magazine and delicious.

music. well, i have to say that buying records and cds is a good thing. i don't particularly agree with burning cds instead of buying them. (burning to see if you like it, or as a duplicate for a discman - that's ok).


but uni? in the past 24 hours i have changed assignment topics for two subjects. and this change will help me to justify some more purchases.

the change to blogging for my first exploring technoculture assignment, means that i can now justify the purchase (or intended purchase) of rebecca blood's We've Got Blog: How Weblogs are Changing Our Culture.

and i just decided. instead of analyising hewlett packard's website for ecommerce technology, i'm going to analyse marthastewart.com. which of course means that i'm going to go off and buy a copy of martha stewart living. today.


it's all very pathetic. isn't it?


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march 20, 2002

random access memory

RAM is one of the more interesting community driven blogs i've seen in a while. and the simplicity and anonymity of RAM makes their online s11 memorial very touching.


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march 20, 2002

81st dimension

much better (only 1/2 hour off now)


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march 20, 2002

27th dimension

and then i realised that the country / time setting on my blog is way off (there isn't a central australian time included...)


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march 19, 2002

achey

i just realised how sore i feel from yoga. and that it's 1.20am. sleep now.


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march 19, 2002

motivation. i actually did stuff!

i have stayed awake all day!

after yoga and lunch with chris, i looked at the hewlett packard site for my ecommerce assignment. researched, changed my mind about my exploring technoculture assignment, wrote some notes for my new topic and typed them up. and i got confused when i looked at the objects and algorithms assignment source code. and i also did a [really] basic database schema for peter, josh, erin, [the other dude] and my ecommerce [pretend] t-shirt store!

and i picked some flowers (hot pink bougainvillea, lavendar, pink and white geraniums, yellowy-orange chrysanthemums in a bright orange vase), walked up to the shops, watched secret life, ate yummy stirfry, read some kavalier and clay, ate dinner and am now watching jack and jill.

i feel like i've been productive.

and

i bought some cool japanese paper for not to scale and i've decided to:

knit a scarf - specifically a scarf like this or maybe the stripey one from rebecca [i really like the stripey jumper and the "fluffy sweater"].


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march 19, 2002

it's all about balance

i'm a libran. this means that i have the tendency, no, right to change my mind: about where i want to go out to eat dinner; about what clothes i'm going to wear out on a saturday night; about the dates and destinations of any journey.

i'm going to use the very non-guidelineish specs of the first exploring technoculture as my reason.

so. no longer am i doing a folio of ideas and commentary on "techno" music.

this would be a great subject if i felt i was part of a culture which [re]creates music. i'm friends with people who are actively listening, sampling and recreating music, as well as being original creators of music. i listen to [this rather vaguely defined] "techno" music, but i don't think that i could really explore this as an assignment topic.

i'm now going to do an assignment on blogging. it's a cultural discourse which i am continually taking part in as a consumer and as a [re]producer.

there are heaps of links out there. i can then (potentially) justify ordering We've Got Blog: How Weblogs are Changing Our Culture by rebecca blood.

and blogging fits beautifully into manuel castell's five recurrent elements in information culture. namely:

the problem is going to be limiting the amount i write!


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march 19, 2002

some times i feel angry and sad all at the same time...

like now... because of this.


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march 19, 2002

anti-insomnia

every tuesday afternoon, after yoga, i end up "having a nap" at about 2.30 and stay asleep until about 7.00 pm. this is not good.

i'll do a little bit of uni work, then i'll 'reward' myself with reading a chapter or two of whichever novel i'm reading. then, i'll get a little bit sleepy. and tell myself that i'll only nap for a little while.

but not today!

i'm going to do more than a little bit of uni work. i'm actually going to do some. [there's quite a bit of difference there!]

i'm going to get the basic information for my e-commerce technology assignment. (it's only a 2000wd essay.)
and some links for my exploring technoculture assignment.


and as my study 'reward' i'll walk up to the shops, do some weeding and plant watering, hand-washing and ironing. [strangely i have more intended rewards than work]


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march 18, 2002

mum's cooking downfall

it seems to be a weekend of pavlovas. in sweden, aidan made a slightly burnt pavlova. and more importantly for my stomach, mum is making two pavlovas for my little brother's birthday dinner. yum yum.

and we're also having one of his favourite meals - chicken breasts with hollandaise sauce (lots of separated eggs - yolks for the sauce, whites for the pavlova).

i've never made a pavlova yet, as it's been one of those special occasion yummy things that mum's always been in charge of. so i think that i'm going to learn to make one. and of course, i have intentions of making an amazing flash presentation for consume.

but i'm a bit afraid. what happens if pavlovas are my cooking downfall? my mother's cooking downfall is sponge cake.

literally. they'd fall down and collapse and had a weird texture. and my mum has always been a very good cook. but sponges. she just can't get them to work.

once for my primary school's welfare (parents and friends) club AGM, mum said that she'd make a sponge. it was a traditional thing, one of the mothers would make a "birthday cake" for the club.

i think mum tried about 8 times to successfully make a sponge. our neighbour priscilla was enlisted to assist in the sponge tutorials. and none of them worked. dozens of eggs and so much cornflour and castor sugar was wasted.

and mum has never attempted a sponge again.


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march 17, 2002

a modularised person

finally. i not only have my computer back in working order, but i am also re- DB_File.pmd and have Movable Type working again!

so, comments will now work. and i can post regularly.

:::...

last night's foray to the "hedone" final night party of the fringe was pretty damn disappointing. [btw. thanks for the ticket chris]

not enough people and "universal dust" a group providing bad [live] vocal house music were the main problems.

i left at about 1 and wandered up to north terrace. finding a lovely group of carclew related kids. including katie (who i met while she handed out flyers at the artery party) and a young boy called isaac who was blessed with delightful manners. and some other people whose names i forget.

and then i returned to my car, avoiding the crowds of drunk, car obsessed clipsal 500 fans.

:::...

today (yesterday) was my minibro alex's 13th [!] birthday.

we're going to go looking for a trendy, young-person's cap on the weekend, but i also gave him deltron 3030. a very fine suggestion for his present [thankyou ben].

it was lucky that i did head home early on saturday night, as my dad chose to have a st patrick's breakfast to celebrate alex' birthday, at 9.30 on a sunday morning. i wasn't happy. in fact i was quite tired.

:::...

i have three assignments due next week. i'd forgotten how quickly week 4 can creep up.

for one of them (exploring technoculture, i'm looking at the "pervasive effects of new technologies" specifically, how technology is changing the way we listen to music and the way we then use technology to reuse this music / sound (sampling) and create new music[s] and ways of listening. so if anyone has links they found out during 2002a2d comment them to me.

i also have to do some poorly specified assignment for objects and algorithms and an essay for e-commerce technology. i'm going to be busy. and i've just started working on something tentatively titled not to scale. we'll see what happens with that.

:::...

i haven't [properly cry] cried while watching a film for ages, until i saw one true thing tonight. it completely wrecked me.


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march 16, 2002

755. pesky, pesky hosting company.

755.


pesky, pesky hosting company. DB_File is theoretically on the server, but hidden away at /usr/lib/perl5/5.6.1/i686-linux/DB_File.pm.

i wish i knew how to make movable type recognise it...

hmmm. maybe if they actually set the f*%#ing permissions i wouldn't be having these problems. there's no sense having a Perl Module setup without executable permissions.

geek talk over.

i'm going to give a boy in sweden a call, make and eat some food, read some more.

:::...

i'm going to give a boy in sweden a call, make and eat some food, read some more kavalier and clay, listen to the clash 10" i bought today, and yell along with the new trail of dead album and then, get ready for the dirty house party at the fringe hub tonight.

but all i feel like doing just at this very moment is singing along with new buffalo.

...came home everything was a blur, all mixed up and messed up, eyes all tired and broken...

:::...

last night i was very, very tired and i chose to sit at home, nap, read a book, procrastinate study and watch tv.

and such good tv!

the bachelor and the bobby-soxer: cary grant and shirley temple. what an amazing combination, and such a cute story.

it reminded me of sunday afternoons when i was a kid, we'd watch the bill collins classic movie special. black and white or technicolour, musicals, amazing clothes and hairdos which never fell out of place.

and then nobody knows anybody: an interesting and confusing spanish thriller set in seville.

i'm definitely going to seville. i just want to take photos of the buildings.


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march 14, 2002

an unforseen casualty of divorce

an unforseen casualty of divorce


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march 14, 2002

[explanation of the golem] when

[explanation of the golem]

when i get to prague i'm going to look up at the ceiling of the old-new synagogue and imagine that the clay body of yossele is lying there.


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march 14, 2002

joy. harry potter fan fiction.

joy. harry potter fan fiction.

but could it be as good as the nanny / buffy the vampire slayer fan fiction crossover?


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march 14, 2002

i feel like a murderer.

i feel like a murderer.

today i cleaned out some boxes that have been stored in my mum's garage since forever. the shocking thing was that i actually threw away some reckoning related items.

you have to understand. this was a BIG thing for me to do!

i still have posters, flyers, mailouts, feathers, tickets, set lists and tshirts which are all related to this band. from the end of year 11 through to about second year uni, i was completely in love with this band and specific members (i.e. seamus).

i keep these things because i believe (in some pathetic 16 year old corner of my heart), that some day this collection is going to be worth something. that an adelaide museum of rock and roll will be established. that they may still make a glorious comeback, and play candle one more time.

and that rather than remember the bad things about year 12, i'll be able to remember the absolute joy with which i approached a reckoning show. the discussions on the phone with alison, the repeated listens to the future is stupid, the pigtail hairdos and the fudge hair colour, the nail polish and the especially fancily laced doc marten boots, the bus ride into town, the buzz of all the other "weird kids", the support bands (all who were and are amazing artists), and best of all the arrival of reckoning on stage.

matt, pete and seamus: i salute you. and to all the other weird kids out there, i salute and affectionately remember the love and the respect and the crushes, the amazing outfits and the "pop, pop, pop kapows!". i don't know how i could have survived that year without you.

may you all dance naked in the park (in the dark).


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march 13, 2002

i think that keri smith's

i think that keri smith's comics are swell. check out "how to take a (free) mini-vacation" on get crafty... and " become your own superhero".


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march 13, 2002

motivation. that's what i need.

motivation. that's what i need.

mark has claimed that writing his first book, working on his doctorate and writing a new album [all at the same time] will mean that he gets everything done.

sounds like an interesting idea, you procrastinate and still end up doing everything you need to do.

so i figure. in order to do the things i have to do (study, tutoring work, abc work, sleep) i should do more "other stuff". like keeping on with yoga [after my course finishes], knitting a scarf [and if i get good, some mittens!], taking photos and going to process them at carclew, specifically making an entire, consistent, scalable and beautiful battlecat design, netball once a fortnight, regular "power walks" with mum, developing some kind of portfolio / resume cd with a funky cool flash game.

oh. and regularly cleaning up my room.


it's all going to require some type of mt list. so that i know that at least 3 people will be keeping track of me.
but i'll make up a physical list tomorrow, during systems maintainence and re-engineering, in between doing the reading i missed out on tonight (by being online).
:::...

so tired. i have to wake up for uni tomorrow... so no reading of kavalier and clay.


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march 12, 2002

wow. in netscape 6 [.2]

wow. in netscape 6 [.2] the blogger interface does not turn out well.

:::...

i'm pretty pissed off with myself. because i left getting a uni parking permit for too long, ended up with 2 x $25 fines and the $17 permit to pay for.

which prevents me from going to the 20% off for uni students sale @ borders today. that's about 3 good books i'm missing out on.
my stereo doesn't have happy, working speakers any more, so i keep on missing out bits of lovely songs (specifically, new buffalo's about last night). that makes me upset.

so, i think i'll get a discman. the sound will suck if i use my computer speakers, but i have excellent headphones to use instead. and i can use my stepdad's record player for the meanwhile.

:::...

and i keep on reading good blogs. whose authors make their day seem like a story. whose authors can actually write.
maybe i should give up on this.


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march 11, 2002

i can't believe how dependent

i can't believe how dependent upon movable type i have become...

but due to my server not running DB_File at the moment (and not being brave enough to install the module) i have returned to the fold of blogger.

must sleep in preparation for yoga...


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march 11, 2002

.:. janine by soul coughing .:

i spelt your name out on my licence plate
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how excited am i?!
photoshop tennis returns from a summer break this month. which will definitely make my fridays at work much more exciting.

:::...
the bbc tests your [obscure] word power from coudal partners

:::...

no real blogging, but i've finally put up an about page. it's 2am and i must go to sleep now. i have to tutor (i really hope i do better than i did last week) and then go hang out with people. sleep makes for less yawning, better teaching, and much wittier conversation. [i hope]
flutterbies
the lack of DB_File on my server is really bugging me.

i have all this news from the weekend, and now that i am denied the spontaneity of movabletype, i'm probably not going to feel like typing anything.

yep. i am bereft of inspiration.


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march 09, 2002

display fixed!!!!

oh my god, i don't know how but my mum fixed the display drivers problem for my computer. this is amazing!!! i'm so excited that i chose to [at 5.24am, still slightly drunk and very very tired] log on to the net and blog, even though i actually have to manually ftp. [my host is missing a very important perl module at this current time].

yay for my mum. i think i'll have to get her a present. but what?


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march 07, 2002

queen adelaide

there are some day when i completely love where i live.

today has been one of those days, just because. it was sunny and just warm enough to enjoy sitting outside. but not too warm. there were some beautiful little clouds skooting across the sky, and even the planes flying overhead at uni made me happy.

the first time i strongly felt this love for adelaide was last year when i flew back from melbourne. it was late afternoon, and the there were clouds in the blue sky, but they were high up. as the plane moved over the hills, over my suburb, over the city, over the tiny little cricket players on a suburban oval, i just felt so happy. i know that i will go away from here, because i'm young and adelaide always stay the same. but that's why i'll want to come back. because it will still be beautiful.


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march 06, 2002

pink space shuttle

i've finally been able to backup my gear off my harddrive. that is one good thing. i couldn't save any of the emails that aidan sent to me (weird) but i managed to keep the emails that i sent to him last year.

and my bookmarks file. that was important.

so now, i have cleaned off the bad install of windows, and the install of linux which became lost after the new windows install.

and now i am reinstalling linux (with gnome) after putting on linux (without gnome) and deciding it would be safer than fooling around trying to install the new modules.

:::...

i'm being a naughty girl by reading ahead witht the buffy episode summaries.

:::...

hmmm. i've got linux installed with the gnome interface. good. now i have to format my c partition so that i can install windows. [fingers crossed]


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march 04, 2002

display is stuffed

last time i formatted and reinstalled windows i couldn't get my display to work properly. it worked in 16 colours and at 640 X 480. but nothing else. and then a friend fixed it up by installing a driver off one of the disks i had anyway.

but the driver for what? we think it might be the motherboard. and which disk was it?

anyway, this friend is in sydney and is probably still recovering from mardigras. so i'll leave it for a bit before i bug him.

:::...

i can not teach. the tute i ran today sucked. i went really really fast. missed out information, assumed that people would actually read the information that they were handed out.

i think i should become a gardener.


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march 04, 2002

toesocks prevent toejam

an interesting thought isn't it?

it's my first day of tutoring desktop publishing. in 2 hours i'm going to have to speak slowly and clearly, not yell at people when they haven't bought their textbook, and act like i have authority over mature-age students.

"respect ma authorita! i might only be 22, but i can make sure you fail!"

scary.

:::...

last night i went to see superscience and curtisplayingrecords at supermild. curtis did his djing thing and then he and mark did some cool thing where curtis mixed records over the top of the superscience tracks.

and the superscience tracks were new!

:::...

my linux installation is not going well. my old windows files still exist, and i can boot linux off the new drive using lilo. but when i try the dos boot from lilo, the system just stops. and i can't run windows at all.

when i put in the windows disk it wants to format the c: drive. so i tried to mount the drive in linux while in root mode so that i could copy the old files over so that i wouldn't have to worry about losing them. and now i can't even mount and view the files.

poo. i say poo to poor dual boot installation instructions.


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march 03, 2002

setupyourworkingenvironment

don't ever let me near operating systems. they seem to go completely mental when i'm around.

today ed and mum helped me put mum's old drive into my case (which i'm going to replace soon). that all went pretty well. though we had to salvage screws from the mounts of all the other components. so the whole the thing could fall apart at any minute.

then ed and mum went crabbing with dichan and dylan and tashi. leaving me in charge of partition magic and redhat linux 6.2 (i can always upgrade later to 7.4).

now i read through the hints in partition magic about installing a second o.s. and once that was over i booted from the linux install disk in the cdrom drive. (i think this was where the mistakes start) i clicked yes to letting redhat managing it's own partitions (i'd already setup a swap partition and a linux fts partition... as per the p.m instructions.) and then at another point (when the drive to install to may have been setup, i accidentally clicked "next" twice) to end up with linux as the main operating system.

i should also add. i didn't bother to back up! but thank jebus, the stuff i should have backed up is still on the drive. so now i am reinstalling windows over the top of linux.

:::...

in uppsala it is a chilly but sunny day (-7°c)


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march 02, 2002

living music

i wish that life was like a musical.

we'd be able to sing instead of talk. when crossing the street we'd kick our heels up to the side and click our fingers. strangers walking past would grab our hands, spin us around and then everyone would get together for a big dance spectacular.

and people would smile almost all the time. and when they weren't feeling happy they could sing the sad songs they've always wanted and needed to sing.

we'd shimmy our way down to the shops. in the fruit and veg aisle there would occasionally be a jiggle of jugglers playing with apples and mandarines.

i'm looking forward to my wish being granted.


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