january 31, 2001
free sms! [ s
free sms! [ s p o r t s g i r l . c o m . a u ] kinda cute. but FREE sms!
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january 31, 2001
sarah refuted my claims
sarah refuted my claims that she has a crush on aidan from polevault.
on the weekend when she was in melbourne sarah had low blood sugar and had to be taken to the hospital in an ambulance. i feel worried about sarah when i hear about her hospital visits. even though she gets to go in an ambulance [which i'm kinda jealous of].
:::...
i'm hungry. i have to fast for my blood test tomorrow. it's kinda ironic not eating so that they can test my blood to find out whether i'm eating enough.
i'm tired. this waking up early thing is bad.
i ramble. i just sent my (non polevault) aidan a 20k email. it was like one long blog entry. with pictures.
:::...
to paraphrase blog worthy bits of the email:
- i spoke about an old adelaide band called the miltons and how they reminded me of being 17 again.
- how i've been wanting to cry for the last day due to fucked up menstruating girl hormones.
- about the houses that chris, michelle and i looked at this afternoon. there was a really ace house on glynburn road which we probably won't get.
- how i want to get a normal shop job as i don't think that web freaking at the lab will last (or remain monetarily worthwhile).
:::...
i also gave aidan the address of my website. it feels weird. i can deal with my friends reading my blog, but the whole boyfriend accessing blog thing. that sure will be strange.
it will be interesting to see whether the tone of my entries change.
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january 30, 2001
excellent. i've set up
excellent. i've set up personal web server and php on my computer.
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january 28, 2001
:::... netball. sweating. drinking.
:::...
netball. sweating. drinking. introductions. vomiting. sleeping. recovering. wudan method. painting. stretching. doing nothing. reading. vomit stories. laughing. driving. milang. introductions. tacos. bridge. chairman mal. listening to snoring. laughing. mosquito nightmares. bacon and eggs. coffee. sailing. electronics whizkid for 5 minutes. driving. doing nothing. listening. understanding. wudan method. sleeping. reading. wudan method. leaving.
:::...
pipstar @ 10:03 PM | link | Comments:
january 26, 2001
i feel kinda rude
i feel kinda rude as i'm palming andrew and lara's engagement party to go sailing. but not that rude.
:::...
i got very drunk last night. i vomited. aidan was very supportive and encouraged me to chuck. it was the right thing to do.
my stomach still feels wrong.
but i got to see the snake. she went to the same school as me, used to date aidan and is a fool. a fool doing a medical degree. a conniving fool.
pipstar @ 04:14 PM | link | Comments:
january 25, 2001
curse large files. i've
curse large files.
i've spent the entire afternoon working on this extremely large (100mB - don't ask me how that happened! it's someone else's) word file which has many images and charts embedded in it. It almost drove me mad. finally greg helped out. it's only 25mB now. which comparitively is very small.
:::...
i'm getting all prepared to play netball in about an hour. must remember to _catch_ the ball, to not run once i've got the ball and to throw the ball to the dreamteam members.
i should eat something.
i haven't played sport for years. chris and i have "wrestled" recently. not that me bitch slapping a 6'2" boy counts as wrestling. should really start this taekwondo thing soon
i don't know how my body will cope with consistent exertion. if i think of it as dancing i'll be fine. yep. i'll sing avalanches songs in my head. maybe some beastie boys and even some kylie.
wish me luck. i hope i survive it.
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january 25, 2001
it is far too
it is far too hot in this city. i want to move to iceland.
now.
:::...
we're setting up the pc at work!!! yay!!!
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january 25, 2001
flashtastic vietnamese cold spring
flashtastic vietnamese cold spring roll recipe is up now!
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january 25, 2001
i'm playing netball for
i'm playing netball for the sleep centre dreamteam tomorrow evening. i have to file down my nails. my nails were the best they've ever been...
the scary thing is... i'm kinda looking forward to playing netball
... and sport and i have never been particularly close.
:::...
i can't believe that i've got into a good sleep pattern because of a boy... i'm waking up early so that i can do work during the day so i'll be free at night. [logic which has never struck me until recently. work day - relax night]. aidan may feel like he's competing against ginger (my computer's network name) but i'm having to struggle for attention against fourth year medical studies. somehow i think that he has the better deal.
:::...
it seems like sarah may have a thing for a certain drummer (initial A) from a band called polevault. sure we are reading through the lines but it seems like there are many lines to read between!
pipstar @ 12:03 AM | link | Comments:
january 24, 2001
chris and i actually
chris and i actually did some work! (i just have to remember to print up the document!). we didn't wrestle, play tekken 3, swim, watch tv or anything bad. (well he did have a look at the maeda@media book - but that's design related and therefore work related).
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january 24, 2001
i'm definitely dependent upon
i'm definitely dependent upon computer speed. i still haven't decided whether i'm addicted, infected or a technophile. i have to read up on it some more.
whatever i am, the fact that i'm considering the level to which i relate to my computer implies that i spend far too much time working on these damn machines. and i just spent last night defending myself against aidan's accusation that computers are my only passion.
they really aren't. they just occupy a lot of my time.
:::...
but. say that there were no computers. or that i'd been born twenty years earlier... what would i be doing with myself? would i have ended up doing law or medicine as my father wished me to? would i have become a print designer, a singer or a housewife? it's a question that's been annoying me.
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january 24, 2001
wow. mac display is
wow. mac display is so very different from pc. i knew about it. but i've never really paid attention before.
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january 24, 2001
i'm teaching peter about
i'm teaching peter about the wonders of blogger. he's still dubious, but give him a few minutes...
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january 24, 2001
jolan has updated his
jolan has updated his site. it looks excellent. i'm jealous of your style kiddo
:::...
sarah, i'm so sorry to hear about your grandma passing away. i hope you and your family feel better soon.
pipstar @ 11:40 AM | link | Comments:
january 24, 2001
my computer desktop image
my computer desktop image is betty page... a funky high colour photo of betty sitting on a chair. it's being complemented by a bright pink windows scheme.
a scary pink. barbie pink. the pink i normally can't stand. unless it's pink bonds hipster boy pants.
:::...
damn. jack and summer are just so eloquent. their blogs are so beautiful (wordsandsights).
slowly i'm getting somewhere.
pipstar @ 11:28 AM | link | Comments:
january 24, 2001
i'm overwhelmed by the
i'm overwhelmed by the amount of ace looking blogs that are listed for the weblog awards. i have a hard enough time keeping up with my regularly read personal blogs, let alone looking at new ones.
i'm overwhelmed.
pipstar @ 11:05 AM | link | Comments:
january 23, 2001
there are notes in
there are notes in cap'n jazz' little league that send shivers down my spine. [in the what an ace song way].
hey lue. thanks for lending me analphapolothology six months ago. i've got my own copy now. i'm happy.
adelaide is very hot. we've turned the air conditioner off as it won't work in this heat (irony?)
pipstar @ 02:40 PM | link | Comments:
january 23, 2001
my php includes are
my php includes are working!!! yeah!
i feel like my day has been well spent. i've done some website work. made a list of saht stuff for chris and i to do. reinstalled software on my [working] computer.
i've been awake since 9am [sure i slept 14 hrs the night before] and i feel great!
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january 23, 2001
i received new records
I received new records from ChaosMusic today. hopefully this will post through.
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january 23, 2001
i'm also using internet
i'm also using internet explorer at the moment. it's maybe the 5th time that i've used it.
kinda weird. however much i'm against microsoft (despite using their products) i have a feeling that i'll be returning to i.e. again.
pipstar @ 10:03 AM | link | Comments:
january 23, 2001
freaky. i'm trying to
freaky. i'm trying to do the include multiple blogs thing. hopefully it works
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january 22, 2001
fucked up psychology department
fucked up psychology department meeting today. we have been palmed by jacques et al. i think we're all feeling like we've just been dumped [but out of a really crappy relationship]. so now we want alimony. gifts. etc. but we will never give them a second chance.
pipstar @ 01:04 PM | link | Comments:
january 21, 2001
wow. friends and strangers
wow. friends and strangers have been reading my blog. weird.
i'll say something [in real time] to a friend and they'll go "oh, i read about it on your page". it's kinda freaky.
MY COMPUTER IS FIXED!!!! THANKYOU PETER!!!!
listens _._ radiohead - kid A _
eats _._ bakers delight bread with camembert _
looks _._ green pj pants and black singlet _
met the parentals last night. and the dog.
his mum and i have already joined forces. we all ate pesto. it was good. and not even near stressful.
:::...
i went to the crown and sceptre for little aesthetics. saw tim koch, pretty boy crossover and superscience. i fell asleep for some of the superscience set (sorry mark), but i was awake for an excellent new track. no name yet, but it had to do with memories.
people were sitting too still. it was danceable music. i wanted to slowly boogie. instead i kinda passed out. (soda water and lime cordial all night. i had no excuse)
:::...
things to do this week:::...
work meeting tomorrow morning
get stereo face for car replaced
look for house to move into
sign saht contract with chris
finish cleaning up bedroom and computer room
andrew and lara's engagement party
clean car. or pay someone to
pipstar @ 02:49 PM | link | Comments:
january 19, 2001
listens _._ the paradise
listens _._ the paradise motel - reworkings_
chris and i got the south australian housing trust contract!!!! payment=copies of flash and fireworks!!! we might get more work!!!! [we rock so hard]
:::...
i'm all for fightclub-esque matchoffs between people. release of anger is a good thing. but boys, don't involve me in it. it's not my issue. you both might have been my friends, but i don't want to have to deal with the shit anymore.
apart from surrounding male angst, my time lately has been excellent. boyfoodwinemusic. what else does a girl need?
:::...
everytime i type in www.b... {for blogger.com} , i get the automatic fill in turn into www.big-penis.com. which [since it is my mum's computer] is kinda worrying. she claims that it came up when she was looking for warez (my family are such geeks), but you never know with my mum...
:::...
listens _._ soul coughing - irresistible bliss_
blumarten is home of leo wyndham [aka juniper] who did remixes for the [late] paradise motel. good flash. lush remixes. [though i can't find anything about juniper there at the moment.]
:::...
aidan and i are making pesto tomorrow. yum.
we had sushi today. and fresh pineapple and orange juice.
we get to go to the central market for pesto ingredients!!! [mmmmmm. food.]
:::...
the punters club page on citysearch says that ninetynine are playing on february 23rd. i'm so there!!!
tired happy girl
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january 16, 2001
jimbob linked to me!
jimbob linked to me!
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january 16, 2001
i felt all dizzy.
i felt all dizzy. and almost fell off my chair. my head seemed to be really heavy and lurched to one side.
[i think that i'm pretty tired].
i love her space holiday already.
pipstar @ 04:43 PM | link | Comments:
january 16, 2001
i'm not so happy
i'm not so happy right now. my mum is depressed because her boyfriend is spending time with his sons and the sons won't really accept mum. which makes me feel kinda upset too.
[like a baby who cries because its mother is upset]
:::...
earlier i went out with mum for about half an hour and i came back to find a message from mykl that my-ex, stuart, had punched him last night. repeatedly.
mykl and stuart have never got on particularly well. stuart says he hates mykl.
[i think that] stuart has always been annoyed that i'm still friends with mykl despite stuart's opposition to him.
[i think that] stuart is going through a bad time. but that is not an excuse.
[i hope that] he feels bad about what he has done. bad about hitting mykl and bad about hitting anyone.
[he said that] he abhorred violence.
[i feel that] i can never know him again.
pipstar @ 04:15 PM | link | Comments:
january 16, 2001
listens _._ her space
listens _._ her space holiday - home is where you hang yourself_
i'm happy. the boy. and some of my new cds finally arrived! {her space holiday and the hilltop hoods}
her space holiday reminds me of superscience:
these songs are killing me already. the doctor and the dj. maybe that song is a bit too close to home. but already i feel like i know this album. it makes sense to me.
it's a very clean design for the hsh cd cover. beautiful photography.
if sarah and i organise "rock city" at swingcat i'll be able to play hsh AND jets to brazil AND elvis costello AND avalanches bsides AND promise ring AND atom and his package.
______::::::::______
pipstar @ 04:15 PM | link | Comments:
january 16, 2001
it turns out that
it turns out that my computer is completely screwed.
but that does mean that i get to buy another computer. (but how fast? how much hard drive? cd burner?) and i'm excited about it. but annoyed that i have to spend the money.
.....
it feels weird blogging from someone else's computer (mum's). i don't really mind the online journal bit, but using another computer to type it in is strange.
:::...
making up a stortrooper
:::...
i think i jinxed myself way too much when i was whinging about the lonely thing. that night i walked down past the crown and anchor and hooked up with lim. which was a lot of fun and lovely and going to be short lived anyway [probably] but then on thursday...
at the work party...
across the table at jerusalem. in a tshirt which said "i got holy stoned in the holy land"...
there was this boy. there is this boy...
even though he's a coffee person (not a tea person) and has never heard of "the nightmare before christmas", he is excellent. he gets better the more i talk to him, the more i kiss him, the more i watch him.
and...
he likes me back.
and...
we smile too much and are maybe too conscious of how happy we are.
so... i'm afraid that something will go wrong.
pipstar @ 12:47 PM | link | Comments:
january 10, 2001
my computer is still
MY COMPUTER IS STILL F*&%^D! [so i'm working on mum's]
_____________________________
we (mum, ed and i) thought that the computer was stuffed because of missing drivers but it is still very very not working. We've tried every logical driver, I've played around with the BIOS but still it is acting bad. there is no way i can work on 16 colours and 640x480. [i am such a computer snob].
it seems to be something to do with the crappy built in 8mb video card that i got on the motherboard
i've been thinking that it's almost worthwhile to replace the entire box and get a new motherboard, a pile of RAM and [finally] a cd burner. but i don't want to spend $1000 just because my computer is acting retarded....
:::...
i bought another skirt! I think that my skirt buying should stop. I may need more pants, but I really have enough skirts (denim, the lee skirt with pockets, a black one, golfpunk cargo type one, lush with stars, camel calf length and now dark chocolate brown very long with open work detail).
that is far too many skirts for me. I [used to] claim that i never wore skirts.
pipstar @ 05:22 PM | link | Comments:
january 09, 2001
the flash menu up
the flash menu up the top of my page doesn't load properly. and the front flash for neoism plays on flash player 4 even though it's flash 5. the scripting doesn't work. crap!
pipstar @ 02:09 PM | link | Comments:
january 09, 2001
errr. haven't updated in
errr. haven't updated in a couple of days. it seems so much longer though.
am i addicted to my blog?
i'm enjoying local boy jimbob's blog. i think that i must know him from somewhere. the first time i went to his page (many redesigns ago) he had links to reckøning lyrics and he mentions seeing seamus play in his archives. it's quite frustrating reading about my hometown and not knowing who this guy is.
i burnt some archive cds, formatted c: and reinstalled windows. which was brave of me. now i'm without netscape (and getting used to ie), have no macromedia products, no winamp and no mp3s (luckily, they're all backed up).
i did have one mishap. i think i'm missing drivers for my crap video card as i only have 16 colours and 640x480 monitor resolution. it's almost driving me insane.
i realised how journal-like my blog was getting. but then i was really postteenangsty last week, so hopefully i won't spill my guts quite so much.
:::...
oh yeah. i claimed to everyone i know on saturday that sarah was out on a date with aiden from polevault. apparently it wasn't a date.
i'm thinking of writing up a couple of crushes for crush.nu. they'll probably be about seamus and caidren, lachlan's brother. [i don't think i ever learnt to spell his name properly!].
i should really do some work.
i'm kinda feeling disenchanted with this job. i don't really seem to have anything to do. i have to wait for design to be done before i start on flash stuff. and this computer seems to die when i do anything with flash.
:::...
...::: things i want to buy :::...
a new video card
another 64 mb ram
ticket to hong kong.
lush clothes.
some more dunlop trainers
design and music magazines
the shivaree album
a bicycle
a vespa
freshly squeezed pineapple juice.
pipstar @ 02:06 PM | link | Comments:
january 07, 2001
i think i looked
i think i looked pretty ace when i went out tonight. freshly hennaed red hair. green revival top, underneath my new black top with the sexy missing back bit. new camel coloured skirt and my black sandra miller slides [comfycomfy stylish shoes].
what did i go out for? well. nothing much and no one really cared how funky i looked [or felt i looked]. i saw 25 minutes of homeforthedefbigband's set, spoke to a couple of people, drank a schooner of pale and then went home. really, it sucked.
i was meant to be in melbourne this weekend! meant to be seeing bogan rock shows, "emo" shows and electronic shows. hanging out with fun people. watching jerry springer. going to the vegie bar [mmm. burrito]. going to the cherry bar [ooooh. sloping floor!]
i had fun on friday despite being in adelaide. the playing with boy was good. then karaoke was fun and so was shotz dancing [even sarah danced!].
but tonight's going out sucked.
and then when i got home at 12.15 [!]. i had a more intent look at saturn.org. jacksaturn is truly a crushworthy boy. so i had a 30 minute internet crush on him and then read about his girl giving him some books to read. i decided that however crushworthy jack is, it's probably wise to not spend too much energy on him as i think many people have a crush on him. then i read about how he's straightedge (though he never blatantly stated that), felt a massive amount of respect and admiration for him and became upset about how i was drinking again...
:::...
listens _._ the white stripes - "jolene", "you're pretty good lookin'" _
eats _._ herby bread with feta cheese _
feels _._ bored. not quite right _
i'm not sure how i feel about drinking alcohol again. especially now that i'm drinking beer. for years i hated beer. i was refusing to learn how to like it because i thought it was a stupid thing to do. to have to _learn_ to like something. it seems wrong.
so yeah. for two years i very rarely drank alcohol. i did however, drink an awful lot of tea.
then this year, when i was visiting melbourne almost monthly, i started drinking (just vodka). in melbourne people weren't expecting nondrinking pippa, so i could drink and they wouldn't question me. then i started drinking vodka in adelaide because i was bored there. now i'm drinking wine with dinner [sometimes], vodka and gin drinks AND beer. not occasionally, but most times i go out now. i even bought a carton of beer for summer party drinking.
i feel weird about it. guilty? maybe.
i'm _enjoying_ drinking nice drinks. beer isn't that bad. and thanks to parentals, i've been able to try some really nice local wines lately.
i feel guilty about why i've started drinking beer (muchmuch cheaper). if it's too expensive to drink nice wine and vodka / gin drinks then i shouldn't drink as often.
but i think that i feel guilty about _why_ i'm drinking again........ to fit in.
:::...
if in melbourne i drink to fit in, that seems to be okay because i love the people i hang out with in melbourne. [i haven't been over in 3 months.... i miss that place]
but in adelaide the people who i seem to be drinking to fit in with, well, i pretty much hated them all last year, felt intimidated by them. one of the reasons why they were weird about me is probably the fact that i was "clean livin'" and well, they aren't.
and i'm not sure that i want to spend that much time with that group. mykl is a bunch of fun and a good friend [we know each other far too well].
now that i've got over the general fearing for my life thing, the rest of the "shotz crew" are showing themselves to be lovely. it isn't that bad.
but do i need to drink for them? i somehow feel that's the way it is.
pipstar @ 01:54 AM | link | Comments:
january 06, 2001
listens _._ the avalanches
listens _._ the avalanches - since i left you, the clash - black market clash _
eats _._ brazil nuts _
drinks _._ lady gray blue flower tea with a dash of milk _
looks _._ new skirt with black hooded t _
buys _._ henna, brazil nuts, camel skirt, two black tops _
my hair will soon be bright [blood] red again!!!! it's kinda gone back to orange red with blonde regrowth. not good. i've been having bad fringe days for the last couple of weeks and then i realised that the new super bodifying shampoo that i'd bought was playing around with my fringe and making it staticky. i'll have to fudge it.
even though joe strummer must be almost 50 by now, he was sexy and soooo good when i saw the mescaleros play at last years bigdayout. i don't think he's ever going to stop being joe stummer from the clash. which is good. because the clash are ace. still.
:::...
i spend two days whining about boys and then i went out and found one. not for keeps. just to play with. i had far too much fun.
when i finally got home from thursday night at 9pm on friday, my parentals were having dinner with my aunt and a couple of their friends. i was really tired and scarpered off to the shower. when i'd finished my shower i went back into the kitchen and was told that my aunt had smashed a plate of pavlova over my mum's boyfriend's head!!! she left a dent in the back of his skull, there was blood and he lost a bunch of hair.
i couldn't believe it! i was so tired that it felt like i'd walked into a dream.
then mykl came to pick me up and he was freaked because three girls had made serious moves on him at the deli where he works. which was also like a dream, because in true munnoparamassive style, mykl is usually talking about his "bitches", and to have him freaked by girls was very weird.
pipstar @ 05:00 PM | link | Comments:
january 04, 2001
listens _._ sandro -
listens _._ sandro - the blood plums_
i really do need to take a happy pippa pill.
chris came over today, and all i seemed to do was whinge. gee chris. i'm sorry. because you are such an ace listening person and are good at calming me down, you always seem to get sad pippa.
anyway. i showered. i played with glue and paper and was generally crafty and now i feel better. not completely. still liable to go teary.
i heard that two people i know are now engaged. i won't list their names as it's only just happened. but congratulations aps and ld!!! that is ace news.
must go to retreads now.
miaow.
pipstar @ 09:16 PM | link | Comments:
january 04, 2001
i hate that i
i hate that i want to cry so much today.
i cried on 020101 when nicky got angry at me for telling him to not use my towels.
i haven't cried in months.
i hate that i want to cry and that i want a boyfriend. or a girlfriend.
i'm really not fussy.
about the "friend" being a boy or a girl.
the qualities though. that would require a list. a list which would change.
if this was a technical application i could make a dynamic linked list structure. but i have my head. i won't need the list while i still have my head.
:::...
this wanting someone.
i get annoyed when amanda feels upset and thinks that she'll never find "the one". she's only 18. whenever amanda feels upset and tells me this, i'm in a good mood. in perky happy independent pippa mood.
so i brush off her complaint.
but now i feel the same.
i'll feel better in two days [i think].
but at the moment i'm thinking that despite my independent modern woman's attitude towards sex, i'll never find the right person. i'll just keep on having lovely shortlived encounters with boys in melbourne. and adelaide.
and if i did find the right person, this independent modern woman's attitude towards sex might actually turn them off me. make them think that i'm a slut. and therefore not really their ideal girl.
....
despite society's public acceptance of "modern women", society [i think] still applies archaic attitudes towards women and their sexuality.
fuck. i'm only 21. why do i think like this? why do i want it all? right now?
i wish the happy perky scarily upbeat pippa would return. soon.
i feel far too much like an angsty teenager. (my head feels done in)
i will be a modern woman and solve my problems with retail therapy. and i'll visit the art gallery and see the modern australian female artists' exhibition and eat sushi. hopefully that will work. in the meantime. sleep.
pipstar @ 12:38 AM | link | Comments:
january 04, 2001
listens _._ eels -
listens _._ eels - daisies of the galaxy _
my new years resolutions this year....
to be nicer to my brother.
to look after my car better (haven't started yet)
to be organised.
to be a better friend.
......::::::
well. most of those things require long term commitment. but on 01-01-01, i tried so hard to be nice to my brother.
i figured that if i was nice to him he might end up being a better person too.
but i must explain:
my brother nick, is 18. three years younger than me.
throughout childhood he had every learning disability possible.
my mother was taking him to specialists all the time.
my father did little.
i built up a _lot_ of resentment towards nick.
....
when he was about 13 / 14, he developed schizophrenia as a result of smoking marijuana.
he was also diagnosed with asperger's syndrome (a variety of autism)
....
you wouldn't be able to pick these things. because in reality he is just like a normal slightly dumb 18 year old. who won't ever have a steady job.
he's polite to people outside of his family. girls love him.
everyday he bums $15 dollars from me, my mum or my dad. he gets mental health pension every week.
he spends his money on echo clothing, baseball caps, cigarettes, petrol, iced coffee and dope.
he claims he only masturbates once a week.
my friends and i laugh at that claim.
....
he has annoyed my all my life.
i started biting my nails when he was a baby.
usually when i achieved something, attention would still be focused on him. because he required help.
he has the b.o. of an active 18 year old boy who doesn't use deoderant.
his feet smell really bad.
....
when my mother left my father. i went to live with her. i bought myself some new towels. i wanted to have towels which were my own.
i asked nicky to not use these towels. he had his own towels.
he also smells pretty bad.
yet.
for the last two years he has kept on using the towels. and i keep on asking him and yelling at him not to.
but. my new years resolution was to be nice to nick.
i was nice on 010101.
on 020101 he used my towels. again.
i wasn't nice to nick.
but he still doesn't comprehend that i don't want him to use the towels.
i am still going to try to keep my new years resolution.
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january 03, 2001
listens _._ the van
listens _._ the van pelt - sultans of sentiment _
looks _._ bad hair day. denim skirt and genki tank _
drinks _._ water _
feels _._ sad and lonely_
self_esteem _._ as high as ever. despite loneliness _
neoism head fucks. nightmares with the nanny. friends becoming partnered and happy.________ they're making me feel more tired than i should feel. more depressed. more confused.
:::...
only one of these things really is bad. you guessed it. the nanny nightmare thing.
at what point did she become part of my subconcious? and mr sheffield was there too...
the neoism head fucks. well that's kinda fun and challenging to deal with. i'm getting many ideas.
friends becoming partnered [well at least hooking up with people they should have long ago]. that's a good thing. it just makes me feel lonely. it makes me want a boyfriend.
chris leo of the lapse and the van pelt makes me want an intelligent, lyrically adept boyfriend.
when i was going out with stuart i spent most of my time wishing i was single. not anything against stuart. that's just what i seem to do when i'm with someone.
i just feel afraid that i'm going to have to wait until i'm past 40 to find the right person. my mum spent 20 years with someone she shouldn't have even dated for more than 6 months. my parents are so incompatible.
pipstar @ 11:08 PM | link | Comments:
january 03, 2001
neoism is a meme.
it is taking over my mind like al green. i had no idea who al green was, then lue gave amanda a greatest hits cd, and then he was everywhere. songs would reference him. he was on tv. in magazines.
wrong. so wrong.
i have to shower, get dressed and go to centrelink to see if i can get youth allowance. if i don't get y.a. then i won't be able to move out with chris and i won't finish my degree. [i don't know how well those thoughts go together. share housing and effective study?]
then when i finish my degree i can go off for a graduate placement with nokia in finland. yay!
i was in a dream with mr sheffield and the nanny and it was their wedding except it was the sound of music and it was outside like my primary school christmas plays. fucked.
pipstar @ 01:54 PM | link | Comments:
january 03, 2001
dreams _._ of neoists,
dreams _._ of neoists, the nanny and the sound of music, school christmas plays all mixed together_
drinks _._ water _
procrastinates _._ going to centrelink _
looks _._ star pj pants and fineboys t _
feels _._ crap _
truely. it was fucked. my head hurts so much from comprehending neoism. it's like i've got myself into an umberto eco novel. particularly foucault's pendulum. everything is connecting too much.
i feel like one of raggedrobin if i was going to be a specific invisible (though who wouldn't - she is the cutest).
pipstar @ 01:28 PM | link | Comments:
january 03, 2001
neoism did my head
neoism did my head in.
pipstar @ 04:31 AM | link | Comments:
january 03, 2001
fucked blogger. ate the
fucked blogger. ate the rest of my last post.
neoism was a real movement.
crap.
but i read on. apparently neoism was an "anti-art", fake movement. yay! we are merely carrying on a tradition!
pipstar @ 04:09 AM | link | Comments:
january 03, 2001
listens _._ hilltop hoods
listens _._ hilltop hoods - deaf can hear (featuring bukue one) _
looks _._ fineboys t. long grey skirt. navy cardigan_
chews _._ peppermint gum _
it's weird hearing adelaide mentioned in hiphop lyrics.
cooks _._ soft boiled free range egg with rye toast _
eats _._ the egg. yum. _
a year ago i would have gone, "that egg is way too goojie" and probably thrown it away, but i'm proud to say that i've matured.
there's a problem with soft boiled eggs. they taste nice, but they don't fill you up. so you eat another one, and then you feel sick. i know this. yet i want to eat another.
damn. i really want another egg.
so, i'll have two chocchip cookies instead. that won't make me sick. i'll just get fat.
funnyfunnyfunny. sarah and a whole bunch of my other friends didn't approve of my kissing partner on nye. that makes me laugh. i really can't remember them trying to stop me.
shit. i was very drunk. (i stopped laughing).
see. i knew there were reasons why i didn't drink for so long. you do silly things and you use being drunk as the excuse. crap. i start drinking and i fall into that trap.
pipstar @ 02:38 AM | link | Comments:
january 03, 2001
did i mention last
did i mention last post that nye would have been the 3rd anniversary with my last boyfriend? not that i'm wanting him back. it's just that when you are down and wanting a boyfriend (however socially conditioned that want may be) seeing your ex out on what would have been your anniversary, with his cranky little girlfriend, it makes you feel even more down.
pipstar @ 02:27 AM | link | Comments:
january 02, 2001
listens _._ jawbreaker -
listens _._ jawbreaker - the boat dreams from the hill, ...and you will know... - clair de lune _
wears _._ green singlet and sarong _
drinks _._ first cup of tea for the year!!!!_
received _._ rex records double 10" of the avalanches! [pretty] _
addicted _._ to blogging _
rumours are growing about my behaviour on nye. apparently i "made a man" out of an 18 year old virgin. i will respond to that in the negative. i definitely pashed him. almost took him home. (i really wanted to sleep). but when you are very very drunk (4 beers, 4 non standard size vodka drinks, some gin, and two double black russians) you are much likely to be weaker towards lines such as: "you could be the kim gordon to my thurston moore", "you are the only red headed indie kid". these lines will also work double hard when you have been depressed, bored, have seen fancyPants pash a girl who looks almost identical to his ex [in which case i have no chance as i look very unlike the ex] and are going through a terrible case of wanting a boyfriend.
i'd like to point out that i do want the perfect boyfriend. not just anyone.
anyway. i was feeling weak. i succumbed.
pipstar @ 05:11 PM | link | Comments:
january 01, 2001
listens _._jets to brazil
listens _._jets to brazil - four cornered night, the lapse - heaven ain't happenin' _
looks _._ hungover. but not too much. homemade radiohead t. green pj pants _
eats _._ it's new years day. do you think i'd be eating? _
drinks _._ juice [with many vitamins. it says so on the bottle!] and soda water _
pain relief. that's what i need. my head hurts quite muchly.
there. hopefully that will work.
:::...
i should remember to press post more often!! i knew that i'd have problems, that i was going to lose most of what i'd typed. i flirted with not pressing post and i lost out.
for my peace of mind, i'll recap what i typed:
a) my brother and his very sweet girlfriend had sex in my bathroom. my newly cleaned bathroom!
b) i'm bendy when i'm drunk.
(it would have been so much easier to just type that earlier, but hey, i rambled)
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